TV Drama Watching Me

When I wrote the first horrible sketch at 17, I wanted it to be an extremely sad, dramatic song. Drama. That’s the word.

In a way, I was trying to invent drama, but I had no idea how to achieve it, as I believed my life was quite optimal at the time. The reality is that I was trying to create drama in a work of art, but the strongest drama was already in my life—it was just beginning, and it was about to get very dark.

I didn't need to create anything; after all, my life was the real drama that could surpass any fiction. That is why, more than 15 years later, I reimagined the track to give it depth… now the song is titled "TV Drama Watching Me," as the soap opera itself could enjoy the drama by watching me instead of its own plot.

Ultimately, it mocks the idea: "Why even try to create drama in fiction, when not even a soap opera has as much drama as your own life?"

Musically, there are a few things worth mentioning. I kept the foundation of the track quite loyal to what it was; some melodies are still the originals, and it remains identifiable despite having better color, texture, and many more layers.

I made the violins more fragile with every movement. In the middle, there is a small, intentional interlude that wasn't in the original work—a breather. I wanted to leave a small, hopeful melody open, only to fall with even greater force toward the climax of the drama at the end. The idea was to find a sound with a piano-cut feel, reminiscent of Seru Giran.

The ending is the key point; it is where the narrative intensity lies—the lowest layer, the basement level of the drama. The foundation remains the same, but the violins are mostly replaced by instruments in a lower octave, such as the Melodica and another similar to a Roland Jupiter-8. This gives it a weighted sound, and personally, I would say it carries a Middle Eastern feel.

In this case, an acoustic guitar takes over the narrative, breaking through with slow picking in the style of Pink Floyd (or those vibes).

Finally, an electric guitar replicates the main melody for less than 10 seconds in a rather catchy way, bringing the song to a close. I know people like that electric guitar part quite a bit; in fact, I could have written an entire track revolving around it or continued the solo.

But this is about drama, and to remain faithful to the work, I couldn't allow myself or the listener that final satisfaction. It would have given me pleasure to keep playing that guitar, but that would have led to distorting the piece—in the worst-case scenario, turning it into a pop song.

After all, do not forget that I am only the brush that captures what the work demands, even if it does not suit me.